this isn't should be

damn...i shouldn't be like this again..but i'd miss her....what the fuck i'm trying to do..this is not who am i..stop torturing me like this..i wanted to be bad,i really wanted to...but i failed..they try to turn me into the good people,but i don't fucking want it..looks like it's true that i've been cursed by the things i cursed before..cursed by love...i've been cursed not to be happy...i've been cursed to live alone....ahh..fuck!thanks...for making me lost.....oh fuck!

ain't no pain.

time: 0008hrs

listening to: the clash - should i stay or should i go

waiting for you....where were you...

i smoke dope.....random

i'm enjoying killing flies

seriously,meth makes you being creative like hell

i'd shock my balls with electric shock

did you get laid last weekend

everything you saw,you heard everyday was a shit

i wake for a shit

sometimes i think i hate girls,they annoy me a lot

girl with braces will make you scratch a lot

your voices too loud

we'd like to kill you,tomorrow

sometimes i had a gay dream

beauty won't last,but you'll die fast

if i could,i would like to shoot someone in their head

seeing you've been chased by zombies,makes me laugh

hey people!what does it mean?
time to pretend that we are ghost
lying is the most easier things girl can do,without taking off their cloths
you wasting your time reading this,let's have a dope.lol

i never imagined this would be so hard

You look like you're getting cold.
I know that you won't call on me.
You look like you're letting go.
I know it but instincts are telling me your fading out.
It's so hard without you. This wasn't my fault.
Tell me how am I suppose to live without you?
This is all that I remember before you changed...
You're stuck in a dream with next to nothing.
I'm all alone and nothings what it seems
without you next to me.
Sometimes it feels like home, so safe in the shade.
But when the summer fades, there's always something missing.
And now that I'm on my own, I know why you just...
just couldn't stop... and why you had to leave.
It's so hard without you. This wasn't my fault.
Never imagined I would feel so low.
I never imagined this would be so hard.
Tell me how am I suppose to live without you?
Suppose to live without you... 

say

when i looked at you(your pic actually =P),
every anger melts into a feeling that calm me down,
every sad emotions turns into a smile,
every raindrop turns my heating body cool down,
every dark night turns shine with the stars,
every breath makes me believe that i always wait for you,
everytime it makes me more patient on you,
and the most thing,every "i love you" are meant to me and you.