i wish i was dare to do it.

it seems to be just like before,
left me alone again,
she didn't know how hard it feels like,
i really miss her so damn much.

but nothing i can do,
if i can make clocks turns back,
i will change every her single tears to cheers her a lot,
babe,i really miss you.

god!!why did you test me like hell?
why we always be like this?
why my life is nothing just like thrash?
and my dark little heart said "just face it like a man".

did she knows how much i love her?
didn't know if she care,
i don't just blame it on her,
but i can stop blaming this to myself,am i losing my fucking faith?

if i got a chance,
i really wants to see you,
your smile,your eyes,your laugh,your tears,your voice,
everything bout' you still haunt me every single days.

i wish you understand how much i love you,
god!why don't you take me tonight,
i don't care every single sins that i make, i didn't care if this can place me into hell.
if this can make you realized how much i care bout her,how much i loved her..take me!

but i scared if one day,
i wasn't there for her,
if i die tonight,i will be the ghost that take care of her,
i will be the ghost that watching her sleeps,everywhere she go.

did she know how am i look when i'm alone?
did she know how much tears that i cried every single night?
did she know how many times i read all her messages everday just to make me stop cried?
did she know how my life is without her?hope she will.

every nite,i played the song that she heard when she miss me,
every nite,watched her picture and cries,
every nite,i still staring at the stars,
every nite,i still thinking of her.

i'm scared if i gonna miss a thing that can make her change,
i'm scared if one day she will forget me,
i'm scared if one day soon,i'm didn't love her again,
i'm scared if she will disappear from my life.

i rather do anything to change everything,
i rather been cursed to keep her heart beside me,
i rather do anything to win her,
i rather die than losing her.

i don't wanna be dead if not seeing her smiles,
i don't wanna make our plans were like a dream,
i don't wanna make myself feels regret all my whole life cause losing her,
i don't wanna be alone again cause i miss her.

i didn't care what people gonna said behind me,
i didn't care if all the things i hate can make her back,
i didn't care all the things she done,
i just want her..just her.

i wish i can hug her rite now,
i wish i can kiss her lips rite now,
i wish i can feel her warmth rite now,
i wish i can see her pair of beautiful eyes,
i wish i can sang to her ears like i do before,
i wish i cried if seeing her rite now,
i wish she's not leaving me alone again like before,
i wish i to see her and tell her "i love you so much honey" but..
i wish i was dare to do it.

i miss you so much honey.