Bring Me The....Bottle.

so fucking damn tired.that's all i can say on last week.one week non-stop music.practice,jamm,perform and rushing to the gigs venue.now i'm light my cigarette on,looking for words to write sumthing out.hearing to The Padangs,a metalcore band from kajang.my bandmate said they were cool.but i missed their performance last sunday cause i'm performing at batu pahat first and i can't get there to make my head bleeds.so fucking damn waste.i still doesn't got the title for this entry and you will be seen it when this all done.my life rite now was so fucking confused rite now.there were three girls that i wanted to stories about.can't really mention it on this entry.just named them "A","B","C".haha.confused and cofusing on 0543hrs.about A,known by almost 2 years and she's kind of sweet girl i ever seen.my head can be slowly goes insane while thinking of her.yes,i'm not such a perfect guy that u can be proud of,but i tried my best to cheer you up.but she's just my past and i work my ass and my head out to forget her.sometimes my head just keep asking me,"why did u still thinking of her?she never think about u.just left her back,she's just a past that u can't turn back.time moves,get up!".but my heart?dunno,they were said i'm still can't forget her and i was in confusing mind."make a path,but don't hurt some others feelings".damn it,why did her haunt me like hell.while i can't get my chance to solve this.so fucking mess.i still try and keep trying to forget her.she's got her own life,but she's hurt my deeply.that's makes my mindset for a revenge.but i'm not the kind who like revenge.come on,i must think positive.i'm not like her.i'm not the kind who likes to played some heart and left when i got what i need.i don't think she knows what "love & friends" means.she's just a zero.i stil get mad when my friend who know about her make fools of her.and he was just a bastard that can be dangerous when he think of her.his life are always thinking bout sex,sex and sex.so fucking damn tired with those kind of friends.wake up brother!it's our responsible to lead them(girls or women),not used them for your own good.like some said "we are near for the dooms day".and now my problems is i still thinking of her and i tried to tell her to stay away from my friend.because i don't wanted her to be like a damn whore in front of eyes that i knew.so if A reading this,please..thinking of the one that u loved.love is not a game.love means a lot.appreciate it while u still breathin'.yes u hurt me but rite now,i'm trying to forgive u.now,stop about A.let have some stories about B rite now.B is my very good friends.love her cause she was cool and sweet.my bandmates says that i was her perfect match.yeah guys,what u guys said are always rite.there was no wrong with ur words.fucking twats.i don't know if she's "got" on me or not.but last few days,she hug me like i'm her bf and my bandmates was shocked like hell seeing me with her.very brave one.i never been hug by a girl like that even from my ex.me also was shocked but not like hell.haha.sometimes i felt that i like her and love her not just like a friends.and i'm just so fucking confused.huargh..what the fuck happens to me.damn it!so fucking confused.i don't know what i'm doing rite now.and bout C just know her about few month,she's also kinda sweet and love talk to her.at least i've got sumone who i can talk to.but rite now i don't know how am i feel about her.yeah i need sumone rite now.and i've said it already.i know it's too early,but like i wrote..hehe..i need someone.i don't know if she "likes" me or not.if she does,i will felt so fucking gross rite now.damn it.my life is so fucking complicated,so fucking confusing,so fucking lost and so fucking mess.i don't know who that i can choose.B or C..damn!i can't decide!fuck off!