empty days.

day by day makes me hates to face my life.
like an empty box but i tried to lived with lie to myself that i'm stronger.
but i can't,i always thinking of her..it's really hurt.
while i think we can lived happily after.
why did there always someone tried to test us like an asshole?
after one and another one "bullshiters" try to make her far away from me.
why did other boys just can't stop bother her.."konek korang da gatal sgt pe?"
bullshit!i know what inside boys mind..cause i'm a boy to.
but i'm different than those bastard...like she said before.
i don't know if she meant it..or just want to make me feel better.
everydays i try to see her..talk to her..but i am so fucking afraid if she don't want to do that.
is that fair if some people makes mistake to her and i always be the victim.
she said all the boys are same..i still remember all the thing she said.
but i tried not to mention infront of her..just doesn't want be so rude or make her sad.
at the end,i am the one who suffer such a fucking lot more than her.
she's lucky if anything happens,she still got her family.
but me?alone like a hell...i don't need a friend to be on my side.
honestly,i don't trust anybody rite now..friends,easy come and easy go.
argh!!nothing i can do..just wait for my death.
god!why did you just me a cancer or something.
something can make her realize how much suffer i am.
so long.....